Jeez Louise...

This stuff is hard.

I know...duh!

The Man came by to talk and pick up some of his stuff. No matter what has happened, we still have a connection that I cannot throw away. I guess that's how us humans are wired. While we've drawn our boundaries - he's still moving out - we've also agreed that he will see somebody to help sort out some of his issues. I cannot turn my back on him, I just won't. Not can't, but won't. It's a choice, and I'll stand by it.

I don't know what the future holds, but I've always felt better making a stand than taking the easy way out. It'd be more convenient for me and everyone else to convince myself that he doesn't matter to me, but that would be a lie, and something I'd regret for the rest of my days. He does matter, and always will, whatever the form our relationship eventually takes.

I feel amazingly strong knowing I can take appearing weak to others. It's a pretty hard thing to do. But what the hell. Like I said before, one ticket, one ride. Make it count.